I’m Pregnant!

Ok so everyone knows already. I’m finally getting around to blogging more about it. I feel like we tried to get pregnant FOREVER, but I know that’s not the case. I really do feel for people who suffer with fertility because it’s heart breaking to think you’re pregnant month after month when you’re not. I found out that I was indeed pregnant the day after Christmas. I was so excited! I told Bode and then we sent a little video to Clint at work telling him. He called back right away and was so excited too. Clint has been wanting a baby forever! I was the one who held us back because I wanted to wait until I knew I was ready again. I can’t imagine me with 2 babies to take care of, so I wanted Bode to be a bit older. I really feel like 3 years apart will be perfect for us. I guess we’ll see!

When I first found out I was totally fine. I didn’t feel sick and I was still working out a few times a week. Things were going really well actually until about 9 or 10 weeks along. Then the fatigue set in! All I wanted to do was SLEEP. I was exhausted, well beyond exhausted. It was so crazy for me to be feeling like that because with Bode I had the symptomless pregnancy. I’m not even joking when I say I wasn’t tired, sick, my eating habits didn’t change, I never had to pee more often than normal, I didn’t have soreness, no cravings, I forgot all about being pregnant ALL the time and was jolted back to reality thinking, “Wow, I’m pregnant!” This time around I can never forget about it. For a few months straight poor Bode woke up to breakfast and a movie or two. I could not make myself get off the couch. When I was up and moving around I felt fatigued, weak, dizzy, and then I would start to feel sick. As long as I stayed on the couch I felt fine! Tired, but fine. I’ve felt sick quite a few mornings, but the couch solved everything. As soon as I would lay down I’d feel ok again. A few times I ignored the feelings and did my thing anyway. I was still scheduling hair appointments and I had a few miserable ones. I can hide it ok, especially when I’m behind someone. Those days I got sick. Yuck. I never threw up with Bode or felt nauseous and I really had no idea how bad it was. I just thought pregnant people got sick and threw up and life was good again. I had no idea it’s like you have the flu or something! It was horrible. I’m very lucky that it didn’t happen more than a few times. I got smarter after that and planned nothing from 8-11am. Now that I’m further along I feel great! I still get tired sometimes, but I’m not so weak and dizzy most days. I’m anemic and so I’ve been taking Iron everyday. I thought my prenatal pills with the iron pill were making me sick, but I think it’s helping now.

I usually stay pretty calm when I’m pregnant. With Bode I was oblivious to everything and went along super excited with no cares in the world. I know a lot of women get stressed and overwhelmed with worry for the little baby, but I had none of that! Everyone I ever knew got pregnant and had healthy babies. I was so naive. Bode was born and I felt like we were hit by a bus. Being in the NICU amongst lots of other sick babies for so long I feel like my eyes have been opened up. I really think it’s a miracle for any baby to be born normal and healthy!  I really try not to worry about stuff in my life I have no control over. I didn’t worry about this pregnancy until the day I had an appointment with maternal fetal medicine. They wanted to check for down syndrome, trisomy 18, and spinebifida. I had the same test with Bode, but this time around was different. I was getting ready that morning and I started feeling sick to my stomach. I went along just feeling nervous and uneasy the whole drive to my grandma’s. I dropped Bode off and my grandma B told me everything would be ok and not to worry. I started tearing up. UGH what was the matter with me. I left grams and just started bawling the drive to the hospital. I get there and had to wait 40 min! Talk about torture. I’ve had spotting with this pregnancy (TMI sorry) and so I was worried about that. The ultrasound tech started doing her thing not really saying much. I asked her if she could see a heart beat and she says, “Oh yes! Everything looks great.” Phew, I felt better after that. All the test results came back normal with no concern to think this baby will have any of those issues.

Bode had an abnormal u/s result when he was about 18 weeks along and we never followed up on it! It showed an echogenic bowel, which means it was really bright on the u/s when it should have been dark. It could have been a number of things ranging from nothing was wrong to a whole slew of problems. The genetic counselor strongly urged we do follow up and that she would forward the info to my Dr. Well, my Dr. never really mentioned it and when we asked she seemed like it was nothing to worry about. I’m so glad we didn’t do any follow up! I am happy to have gone through my pregnancy without anything to worry about. I met mothers at the Ronald McDonald house with babies who had the same problems, only they knew something was wrong early on in pregnancy. None of them knew for sure what the problems were until the babies were born. They thought their babies would be severely disabled with lots of other problems than the small bowel atresia. These moms also got HUGE due to the levels of amniotic fluid building up inside of them. I had tons of amniotic fluid, dangerously high levels. We never tested for it though! My belly never got that big, and I delivered 3 weeks early because of it. I had a really great birth story and I know things would have been a lot different had I known what to expect with Bode after the delivery.

My 18 week check up is April 4th (I might be 19 weeks along by then.. we still don’t really know) and I am anxiously awaiting to find out the sex of the baby! I really hope it’s a girl, but I think Bode would have so much fun with a little brother as well. I  hope they don’t find any issues with the baby! I was told that what happened to Bode was a random thing, and we have no reason to think this baby will have it. No matter what happens we’ll be fine and love him/her just the same. It sure changes everything going through an experience like we did. I kind of miss going along with out a care in the world.  

Baby #2 8 weeks long. I know you can’t see much, but it was really neat to see the heart beating along! Bode and Clint came with me to this appointment. I’m glad they did! Bode was all over the place and I had to give lots of blood so I was very thankful Clint kept an eye on Bode. No one knew I was pregnant and everyone was suspicious already, so I didn’t ask anyone to babysit.

Here is baby at 13 weeks along. The tech was trying to measure fluid in the back of the neck and this baby didn’t want anything to do with it! It was moving all around and she could not get what she needed for the longest time! I had to get up and go to the bathroom to see if it would move. Then I had to lay on my side for a few minutes to see if it would move. The girl kept putting tons of pressure on my belly with the thing to try and move it. It was crazy! Then all the sudden it started doing flips in there! It literally did a bunch of somersaults. It was so weird to me to see it moving around so much when I felt nothing!

Ok so this is from the same appointment. I asked the girl to check the sex of the baby because she had been talking earlier about how she could. I didn’t realize you could tell so early on before she mentioned it. Clint was pretty upset I would have her check for that when he wasn’t there. Sorry love! She said it looks like a boy. It’s totally obvious to me it looks like a boy too. She said that when babies are that little it’s easy to mistake a girl for a boy because their girly parts can protrude to look like a boys. She said not to go out and buy boy stuff or tell anyone it was a boy because she had been wrong in the past. This view was still on the TV when the Dr. came in and I had him look at it and tell me what he thought it was. He wouldn’t say a word! He said it’s way too early to see anything and to wait for my sex check u/s. Clint has been calling it buster ever since he saw this picture, but I’m still hoping we could be surprised and it will be a girl!

 

I sent cell pictures to my sister Kelli showing her what I look like. Not like she cares.. haha but I figure she’s not here to see me so what the heck! I was freaking out because at 8 weeks along I felt HUGE. I didn’t show with Bode until like 5 or 6 months so I was really worried this time around I was just going to look like a whale.

8-9 weeks 

(I really hate not knowing for sure. I hope they can give me a for sure due date at my next appointment.)

Don’t look at all the crap behind me! I had just gotten home from Costco and hadn’t put anything away yet.

12-13 weeks

I feel like I looked the same as I did the month before so I was a little relieved.

15-16 weeks

So I was wearing a maternity shirt in this picture. I’m not sure why because I haven’t gained any weight yet and it’s still baggy in the belly! I kind of want a belly already though! Maybe if I could just skip the stage where people don’t know if you’re pregnant or just gaining weight would be great.

Clint thinks when I take pictures of my belly I push it out. He says it doesn’t even show normally. Maybe I do? I don’t know what I look like to other people! Friends: Am I showing? Do these snap shots do the belly justice??  I’m curious because what does Clint know. (j/k love… )

I was telling my sis Kelli ya know how you try to stand up straight and suck in your gut normally? Maybe I’m crazy and people don’t do that normally… but these pics are me letting it all hang out! Why take a picture of nothing.. I kind of want a belly!

 

I’ll be really surprised if anyone reads this all the way through. I’ve already forgotten so much about my last pregnancy I am going to try and document better this time around.

 

Oh and my due date is either August 28th or September 4th. It was Sept 5th at some point. So annoying! I’m either 15 weeks and 3 days or 16 weeks and 3 days.

OH another thing! I felt the baby move for the very first time when I was at a fly fishing film tour with Clint. I thought I had felt it before then but wasn’t sure, but that night I knew. Clint was so stoked and thinks it’s a boy who is destined to fly fish because of where we were.